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Matt and I always have lots and lots of fun together, but at the end of the day he always has to go home:/. This happened again yesterday, and so there we are outside my house and in front of his truck sweetly hugging goodbye. He wasn't talking and so I asked him what he was thinking. His response surprised and intrigued me. "I don't think you want to know" he replies. What the heck does that mean?!? He says it again, "I really don't think you want to know" and then with a brave voice he adds "but if you ask me again i'll tell you". i'm quiet for another minute thinking and wondering. But I have to know. "What are you thinking about?" I ask again. He kinda sighs and sets me down at the foot of his truck. Having me sit down was a smart move on his part. He looks at me and I'm wondering what it is that could be so hard for him to say to me. "You're not gonna like this" says the boy now standing in front of me.
At this point I am feeling straight up alarm. This boy I adore is about to tell me how things arn't working between us and all I feel is sad worry:( This is starting to feel an awful lot like that terrible night he told me that sometimes he thinks we'd make better friends then dating people. Apparently he was thinking this too and he says "AW! this is turning into that bad night (hey thats what I was thinking! weird.) I think I love you" Just like that he said it all in one breath.

My brain felt like it had been driving at 120 miles per hour and then realized it missed the turn. So it slammed on the breaks and rolled a few times. "WHAT???" is all I could manage to get out "WHA... Wha... WHAT?!??" Matty: "take out the think". Then in he looks right at me and as were staring into eachothers eyes I can't help but notice how soft his look and how full of emotion they were. "Haliaka, I love you" he says. I kissed him and then as quiet as I could I whispered. "i love you too". A couple hours later I received this text from Matty B: "Haha, gotten over the shock yet, or are you still grinning too?" I was still grinning. and having a very hard time focusing. like extremely hard. as in my class played scripture mastery basketball in seminary this morning lol.

Looks like it happened.haha, I fell in love

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These are the general schedules of my family...

Mom, Dad, Kale: work all day.
Maka, Kekela, Nika: go to school all day.
Paul: Stay home.
Haliaka: I am a substitute teacher. So for the ten days I got called in the last two months, I worked very hard. The rest I stayed home.

If you'll notice, Paul and I's schedules mostly lined up to us being home together all day. Did we take full advantage of this???

yes. yes we did.

We would go for runs and bike rides and get addicted to different T.V shows. I even cooked our meals. I don't usually like cooking, but I liked cooking for Paul. We would think about what really sounded good to us to eat. He would always say thankyou in such a genuine way and tell me that it tasted good. Then he'd put the dishes in the sink. We made a good team Paul and I and it was nice to have a good friend to mesh my schedule with. We'd plan our day so that we could both get done the things we needed too, but so that they were ususally done together:)Relationships were discuessed, songs were usually sung. It was really nice. BUT...big sigh... the time came for Pauli to move on. He got called to the Philedelphia, Pennsylvani mission and reported to the MTC.

This morning, I got home from Seminary and Paul was gone. He wasn't on the couch working on his scrap book. He wasn't in his room reading a book. He wasn't in the Kitchen cleaning up. He wasn't in the living room doing p90x. He was just gone.

I sat in the rocking chair and cried.


Things I'm very grateful for:
-i'm lucky enough to have a brother that I miss when he's not here
-all the ways this mission will help Paul to grow
-all the sweet memories I was able to make with my little brother
-that my family can be together forever